i'm so sorry. i let the both of you down.

well. once bitten, twice shy.

this is just not for me.

i don't know how else to carry on.

i cried myself to sleep.

i guess that's the only thing i'm capable of now.

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my head hurts.

i hate all of this.

i just hope for someone who couldhold me tight and not let go.

but i know this is something which i can only hope for.

it was never within my grasp to begin with.