i guess the guilt is really getting to me. you've made me realise how important love is . even for those who are closest to me and would stand by me no matter what. i can't put on a facade everytime she asks me how my life is. it is perfect i must say. everything i wanted is everything i could really have. you've made me treasure what i have now and know the true value of what love is. i just don't know how much i can hold on much longer. as much as you mean a lot to me, i often question myself if that is what i really want in my life.

all that happened today has nothing to do with what i have to say here. i wanted to let you know about this today. but i guess it just wasn't the time to let loose.

i'm really dog tired.