ah ma gad. i just realised my blog is getting damn wordy:( beacause i'm so lazy to upload my photos. yes after this week, i promise it's gonna be real colourful again(:

and anyway, woke up in the afternoon and went to mug and np. and the other purpose was to see kell, wq and nette. but i forgot to let bernette know that i was coming. ah:( but i still got to see her in the end. teehee(:

i was doing okay but when wq and junwen came, i kinda lost focus. heh. all junwen's fault man. play crazy taxi, make me crazy too:(

but i still got my work done(:

i'm so glad i have a wonderful bestie/girlfriend/sista/lame-shit partner/"lover" ----> KELL(:

omg. i seriously need to put up photo:(

exams are like tmr and i can't believe i'm still so slack. omgxzxxzxz.

studying studying studying. i'm gonna die of book poisoning.

i saw neh,swong, ox and heitung today!!! happy happy(:

yest was retail therapy. today's aqua therapy.

swimming.

love the sun.

i want the beach the next time!!!

i need therapy. like all kinds.

i want to be pampered like right now.

i just want to feel like a spoilt brat.

hurts.a lot.

birthday celebrations!!!!

thanks ya'll for everything(:

to think of all the whines and groans that i put kell through. haha.

retail therapy did work it's wonders. but i still need to get more stuffies(:

from tangs --> wisma-->shaw -->city hall-->marina bay-->bugis.

yea. really long walk. thank god i took the idea of wearing heels off my head. my poor feet would've died. haha.

met mummy for lunch at tcc. we saved for lunch cos that meal was on her:D

so we were walking and walking in bugis, and huihan appeared. i thought he was just gonna collect the notes from me and meet ruiwei after that. but nope. so we continued walking and junwen appeared. was really surprised to see him.

rested at the hongkong cafe and after a while, i itched to walk again. hee. dragged kell along.

didn't have much to buy so we headed back.

julius and ben appeared but junwen and huihan wasn't there. and the funny thing is the two of them were busy preparing the cake. haha.

then, blow candles, cut cake. haha. thanks guys!!! but wq wasn't there. they told me that they weren't sure if he was coming:(

so i thought that was it. until they said there was more if he were to come.

and then, we headed to the arcade. tried to catch on of those stuff toys. but to no avail:(

gave up. so we headed to marina bay to have steamboat. but didn't know that everything there was closed down. oh well.

headed back to city hall.

walked to funan to have swensens:D

walked around before that and took a look at ericson phones. random. haha. yea. dinner wasn't really at the top of our heads yet i guess.

then suddenly, some voice went "uh miss, you forgot your birthday present"

haha. i got a shock la. thought it was some salesman telling me i should stop touching their phones when i heard the "uh miss..." part. hahahaha.

turned around, and it was weiquan. yea.

dinner at swensens was truckloads of fun.

girl, i love your book lots!!!! YOU ALMOST MADE ME CRY!!!! hahahaha. omg.

wq, the CAP is awesomely fab(:

guys, thanks for the cake.haha. whats a birthday without a cake yea(:

swensens, i love your birthday firehouse. hahahaha. especially the banana and cherries (ps. huihan, you better check your forehead for any lump ya(: )

i love my birthday!!!!! haha. i love you guys very very very much!!!

thank you thank you thank you!!!

pics up soon kay.feeling lazy. heh.

and please don't disappear...

had lunch with kell and fam at crystal jade. the food was yummilicious. shopped around and kell and granny left cos that girl was feeling unwell. hope you're feeling better ya(:

mommy and bryan bought sports shoes. i bought miscellaneous.

caught HULK after that. nice movie. but the ending just left be baffled. just can't figure it out. oh well. maybe there's a second part to it. heh.

it was supposedly like birthday lunch and everything was like suited to bryan's whim and fancies. then where does it leave me? oh well. just enjoy the time. this day only comes once every year. the clique won't be free to celebrate with me tmr :( look on the bright side, at least i have kell(: and my dearest "many day stand" bought me a present. haha.

no scoldings, feeling all sad. i'm just gonna enjoy myself tmr.

gah. if only the clique could make it:(

studying with kell,wq and huihan was tremendously, fab fun!! haha. omg. all the stomach spasms and footsie moments. AHEM! yea. i mean footsie.

bused down to town to meet kell for her dental appt. omg. it was long. okay. maybe i'm a lil impatient. anyhoo, trained to changi. kell and i were complaining about our hungry stomachs. yea. so much for not taking breakfast.haha.

bought mac and started to study. the ppl at mac recognise me. haha. cos of my hair. yea -.-

huihan joined us at around 3-ish. wth, he studied for less than an hour. still keep on nagging that i'm not doing my work. tsk.

drove kell nuts with the three man choir. haha. out of tune, low and high pitches mixed and came in at our own timing. heh. had a lot of fun(:

but at least i finished math rev. kinda. hee.

YAY!!!

watched the guys match after all that studying. the last shot was omgg!!!! COOLIOS!! "bruce lee" scored while lying down!!! hahahaha. and all 5 guys in the clique played tgt!!!! heh. i guess this match was worth watching after all:D I LOVE YOU, KAIXUAN:D

cabbed home with yunye and kell. omg. we were like thinking of ways to hide yunye cos we told our moms that only the two of us were tgt. damn funny la. haha. oh yea. and "GIRLS INTUITION ARE ALSO RIGHT" yea(:

so now, its time to get back to work again(:

i am freaking bored :(

i wanna go shopping.i want a bag. i want more clothes. i want shades.

i wanna repaint my nails but i'm too lazy to do so.

i wanna sleep.

i'm waiting for my phone to ring :((((((((((

i want this week and the next to end real fast.

i can't wait for my chalet.

i wanna go sentosa.

i need moolah.

i want a new phone(is samsung gd?their phone models are so cool and slick)

i want more songs.

ah ma gad. i have so many wants.

oh i want a new bagpack.

i want shoes/sneakers/gladiator sandals/slippers/pumps/heels

omg. omgomgomgomg.

my want list is never-ending i guess.

maybe right now,

i just want to have attention and love showered endlessly upon me.

it's better to feel loved than to love ;)

rotted at home.

then left to support the guys match at aljunied. ah ma gad. julius you pangsai. haha. be early next time yea(:

princess is getting hot!!! but thanks for the cab ride home :D

KAIXUAN won!!!! yay!!! kell and i were like screaming and jumping. haha. oops. but yea. the score was 54-52(:

wq and i walked kell to the mrt station, well near the mrt station. hehs. girl, you'll always have my shoulder to lean on(:

trained home with huihan and julius and these two other guys(terry and yixin) yup. and cabbed from west mall with julius back home. haha.

now, it's back to the books!!

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sometimes i really wonder if something needs to spark of something before a chain of emotional situations start to happen.

i really am glad that i have a bunch of wonderful dearies whom i can call on support for.

i am happy to have someone whom i can call my sista(:

a bunch of girlfriends whom i can share gossips with.

this group of guys whom are always our body guards. haha.

and more importantly, i feel blesses to have such a wonderful, gorgeous and hot clique, CHROMIUM :D

i've completed chem rev. well, sort of. haha. yay!!! feel so relieved (:

went studying with wq and huihan.

omgomgomg. haha.

i think i nearly killed them with my coldness. teeheee.

but thanks to them and kell, i'm feeling much much better. thanks babes :D

oh oh. and dearest bernette, you're forever the love of my life. hehs.

anw, yest was suppose to be a really nice day.

went shopping with mommy. bought a top. really pretty one. haha.

somebody msged me. teehee.

got home.

finally, played hockey with kell. sorry about your leg girl. haha. and yea. CROSS CULTURE!!! haha. oopsie. but oh wells, what the heck (:

i enjoyed playing hockey. ooooo boy. it was just a "let your hair down" moment.

i hate you. just get your bloody ass out of my life!. ugh. you just spoilt every god damn thing. stop saying what you think and feel because you don't know shit. i don't give two flying fucks about what you think either and stop, i mean stop bothering me!!! omg. you just had to wallow in self pity and make yourself so fuckingpathetic. wow!! know my dad thinks i'm just a cheap bitch who goes around breaking guys' hearts. how effing cool is that huh?!

omg. you just drive me nuts. ugh.

went out studying with wq today. it was productive i must say. at least 1/3 of chem is revised on. yup. so met that ass at west mall and trained to changi. the ride didn't seem long, honestly. maybe that monkey kept me entertained. haha.

feasted on mac. omg. i'm a fat fat pig. seriously. haha. saw audrey and yueli there too. haha. couldn't recognize yueli at first cos she cut bangs. haha. walked past her the second time and then i recognized her. haha.

ben and junwen and bernette came later on. yea. that girl was tempted to come. haha. although she only spent one hout with us. i'm happy that she came. haven't seen her for a very very long time although it has only been a few days since i've last seen her. haha.

then yunye came too. that gayboy rocks my socks.haha. yes. (yunye, i said you're the hottest ah! haha. don't say i'm mean!! )

trained to KEMBAWANG for the guys match. waited at the mrt station for kell and huihan to come. then at the court, the guys settled while yunye, kell, huihan and i went to 7-11 to get drinks and the auntie thought we wanted to shoplift when huihan only said "wth".yea damn stupid and she even went, "you don't come and talk cock to me!"omg. crazy shit. yea.

watched this match before the guys played. reds vs the whites. i'm not sure about their name but there was confusion as to whose side i was on cos i cheered for every ball that went in regardless of which side. kell and yunye kept scolding me. oops. but it was an exciting match luh although our eyes were closing soon after.

highlight!!!

kell was just siiting there watching the match went this group of guys walked past her

kell: SUDDENLY "eh. you know who am i not"

guy: huh? you talking to me ah?

kell: ya!!! 6-4?

guy: oh oh. hi!!!

guy friends: EH YOU KNOW ME A NOT!!!

hahahaha. they must be jealous. wth.

then KAIXUAN played. YAY!! haha. and yes. no confusion during this match. i hard core fan of their team can. haha. cos all my babes playing in it(: screaming for every ball that went in did send some stares in my direction but who cares. i had fun(: and i must say i enjoyed watching those asses play (:

and halfway through the match, kell and i went to 7-11. saw those red guys play and they went " eh! next time go watch our match kay. you cheer we confirm play damn well one!" omg. it's freaking hilarious and i nearly died laughing when one of them followed the two of us with this stupid dazed face and he even forgot to take his shoes! hahahahaha.

LIM WEIQUAN. YOU STUPID PANGSAI! I'M GONNA BITCH ABOUT YOU HERE. HAHAHAHAHA. OMG. KEEP SINGING PRAISES ABOUT YOURSELF. I WONDER IF THEY ARE ALL TRUE. TSK TSK.

camwhored with kell and yunye while waiting for the guys to finish playing. my cam sucks. we have to like freeze there for 5secs after the timer went off. i was already getting spasms. haha.

stayed over at kell's place. that ass omg. want bf dont want me. hmph

qianxi(reds)

whyenam(whites)

kaixuan!!!!!

aha. stupid gayboy.

can't you just understand and face reality. you claim that all this is punishment. i guess it's my fault you are suffering. sorry is all i can say. i don't think i can do anything else. what is there i can do anyway. thest no point. i am going to forget you and i will.

I AM MEETING BERNETTE TMRRR!!!!! YAYNESS!!!!

i'm so sorry.

i really am.

it's an absolute no from them.

i don't know what else to say.

i want to be cold. i have to be.

hope you'll understand.

i seek comfort in your warm embrace.

went out to celebrate tammie's birthday today. uh .belated birthday. haha. finally i got to meet that girl. like after dunno how many donkey years. hahahahaha. had a blast today with all my babes.

wq and huihan came over to my place to wait for kell to come over. haha

bryan spammed huihan and wq's inbox. wth. damn freaking funny luh! "BEWARE OF THE KLLER TOMATOES!!" HAHAHAHA!

kell came. i bathed and changed. cabbed down to her place while wq went to huihan's place cos he freaking came in so called "basketballer" clothes. haha. he thought we were only going to tammie's place. and didn't even bring his wallet. thanks ah!

saw dearest ah ma and waited for that slowpoke to change. haha.

cabbed to PS to meet the rest.

bernette couldn't make it cos of cca. if you guys ask where's bernette, she's always in our hearts (:

junwen and julius came first.

longjohn-ed, kindly requested by wq.

then ben came. took hilarious shots of his and my hand made hearts tiara. haha.

bought tammie's balloon and donuts and after much "walking around and energy draining decisions", trained to city hall.

bought the birthday card and then, wq, jw and huihan went to get her while kell, julius, ben and i prepared her "cake".haha.

we celebrated her birthday at esplanade, the rooftop garden.

the guys brought her there before we even lit up all the candles. damn funny luh. and we were trying to tell julisu to block her vison and the wind. cos the candles blew out after being lit for mere seconds.

camwhored.

and half way, the police came.

tammie and i were standing on a pot pretending to be retareded flowers and they came to tell us to be careful. he was afraid we broke the gimongous flower pot. haha.

and then wq had to rush off for a bball game.

our legs dying from all the walking, we went to bugis for bubble tea. huihan and ben wanted shades and so we walked to bugis street.

had to leave early so tammie stayed with the guys to shop for a while more while kell and i went home.

FUN FUN FUN! THAT'S WHAT I HAD TODAY.

hey ben!

pretty candles!!

our gorgeous cake. haha.

awwww!

junwen, emo kiddo!

i thank god for blessing me with the circle of close friends whom never fail to give me support whenever i need it (:

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it's not what i want but it just has to be this way.

bye.

i'm so sorry. i let the both of you down.

well. once bitten, twice shy.

this is just not for me.

i don't know how else to carry on.

i cried myself to sleep.

i guess that's the only thing i'm capable of now.

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my head hurts.

i hate all of this.

i just hope for someone who couldhold me tight and not let go.

but i know this is something which i can only hope for.

it was never within my grasp to begin with.

i guess the guilt is really getting to me. you've made me realise how important love is . even for those who are closest to me and would stand by me no matter what. i can't put on a facade everytime she asks me how my life is. it is perfect i must say. everything i wanted is everything i could really have. you've made me treasure what i have now and know the true value of what love is. i just don't know how much i can hold on much longer. as much as you mean a lot to me, i often question myself if that is what i really want in my life.

all that happened today has nothing to do with what i have to say here. i wanted to let you know about this today. but i guess it just wasn't the time to let loose.

i'm really dog tired.

gosh. i had the weirdest dream.

YAY!!! I MET MARC TODAY (: he skipped two buses just so that he could board the double decker. haha. i hoped on the bus and we headed to town. bought pencil cases from borders and i got really pretty candles!!!! i has a purpose though. haha. although a little pricy. but i believe it's worth the while:D and and i saw this nice nice book there!!! but my borders card no more moolah. pfft. if not i swear i'd bought the book. it looked too good to be missed anyway. haha.

pastamania at cine. YUM! followed by taking neoprints. long time since i've used that machine and we were all flustered. in the end, took more than 10 pics, suppose to choose 6 but we chose 3. when the time was up, it was just *huh*. yea. so went for a second time. haha. got nth better to do. but i had fun (: haha

bryan came back from camp today because of a tummyache. yea. doc said it could be because of problems with the gall bladder. but he seems fine to me. let's hope it stays that way yea (:

and i don't know how to react and mommy's crazy actions today. omg. it's like i don't know if i should laugh or cry. just read on.

me:so what did doctor say about bryan's stomach?

mommy: he said that it could be GARL BLADDER infection.

ger: huh?

later on..

me: how about auntie's shoulder? how did the op go?

mommy: oh. heng nth serious. it was just PULSE?

me: O.O

and then..

me: mommy!!! i can't find the book!!!

mommy: i help you find later la!!!! come come baby, i show you where we are gonna stay when we go sydney*smiles*

me: what...... (baby?haha)

and when she finds the book...

*i just came over from daddy's room*

*opens door*

me: you found the book!!! * just when she wants to hide it behind her back *

i pretended i didn't see that. haha. after all she found my book (:

but she confessed. not that she said "omg! you scared me"

instead..

mommy: i so cute hor! see you open the door i jump leh!!

ger: (no choice) yes. i saw it.

mommy: i was gonna hide it and tell you i can't find it and then surprise you by going "TAH DAH!!!"

ger: hahahahahahaha.omg.

mommy: see la. where got mother so cute? i even scared myself when you opened the door. i so cute right!!

i guess i just love my mom a while lot.

don't think i make a perfect daughter as much as she makes my perfect mom.

studying again. omg this few days are killing me. the stupid aircon men had to come to early and hence i missed out on my sleep. pfft. everywhere i go there's no freaking place for me to sleep. maybe that's why i'm not very energised although i got a little crazy when i met up with kell and wq.

then the drilling started. i didn't even have peace in my shower. grrr. it's so freaking irritating luh. in the end i left the house for np. yea. that kind of explains why i was with kell and wq. so anyway, that ass didn't really study for his test again. PLEASE STUDY!!! helped him a tad bit. he called kell and she didn't wanna come down earlier. until she knew that i was there. awww. yes. i should be honoured. haha. and i was actually leaving traces on everytable i used at the atrium. and one of wq's friend actually lives 13 blocks away from me. haha. how coincidental. yea. but anyway.

oh saw S and J. omg. his face is disgusting to the max. hahahaha. [kell, dont laugh]

left after buying tako yaki. yum!!!!

can't wait for tmr. I'M MEETIN MARC :DDDD