i'm super confused.

i dont know what to choose.

i don't want to leave the environment that i have already adjusted myself to.

i hate this. really. this is stupid shit luh.

there are ppl close to my heart that i can't bear to leave.

i want to go to a place where i am free of all this.

its the release of the o level results today. didn't do as expected. but i have to just accpet it as it is. making the choice of the jc which i am suppose to attend is really tough. i really didn't regret gong to pj. the friends i've made are ones that i will never forget. they have left deep impressions on me. and now, everytime i think of them, it's a whole lot of memories to think of. gosh. CHROMIUM! you guys really make my day like everyday and i look forward to school everyday because of you guys. and recesses i have with my dearest darlings, from like the drumming of tables to irritation of each other with our countless ''jie jie''. haha. these memories are permanently etched to my mind. the rest of the days we are spending in pj must be spent to the fullest k. weiquan: GORILLA!!! life of the party. don't always emo leh. haha. i prefer your ''cute yet terrorising'' character. junwen: alex! haha. sexy lexy. we can be ''tehhing'' partners k:) ben; blur queen!!! omg. don't be so blur can. the younger version of an ah gong. next time dont wear so loose pants luh. hui han: iverson!!! i need my bananas!!! coolest metro ever. your pecados tshirt damn coolios. haha. and and i have almost mangaed to tolerate the neck itch everytime you grab it :) julius: primary school friend. long time no see. haha. nice to meet you again!!!! tammie: so funny. we are actually good friends although we came from the same school and didnt really know each other until now!! i know you just love junwen and i doing ''that'' to you:) bernette: you are sooooo sweet!!!! haha. ONE WORD FOR YOU: SWEET. :)))) kell: you very bue paiseh hor. 16 years of friendship. one more word and it's off. hahahaha. love ya!! this feels like a farwell post. but it's not. just felt like saying these stuff to you guys. everyone of you is really special. good or bad. i don't wanna say goodbye. this is a beginning a new story that i would like to treasure very much. i've made friends that are really special to me and yea. always kept in my heart:))) LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

to you: don't need to read between the lines luh. haha. i'll write it here:) thank you for all that you've done for me. love the charm!!! i'll treasure the times i've spent with you. see you in school:)))))

OMG TMR!!

my apologies. haha. to chromium. so very sorry!!!! i sent the wrong frequency to you guys!!! okay okay. so now, it's definitely the right frequency. crashed kell's econs lecture today. bio's out and i'm taking econs man. so we just slacked at the sanctuary. slept for a while. damn nice!!! we literally had the whole room to ourselves!! played uno stacko, heart attack and basically just had fun all the way. i shall not talk about unhappy stuff. but just that...I LOVE YOU BERNETTE, TAMMIE, KELL, GORILLA, ALEX, IVERSON, BEN, JULIUS!!! chromium meeting tmr hor!!! please come no matter what!!! please please please!!!!!

uno stacko!! the highest we've managed to achieve!! haha.

with bernette:)))

LOVE YA KELL!!!

WITH BEN, GORILLA, BERNETTE

THE HEART IS A WEAPON

KELL AND BERNETTE

GORILLA TAUPOK-ED BY HUI HAN

AWWWWW

IT'S REALLY COMFORTABLE LUH

sorry. that's the only pic i've got. haha. the nice one at least. i look gross here can.

my loves!!

CLIQUE 9 - CHROMIUM - CHICKEN RICE GANG

hey peeps. tmr is the day man!!! haha. don't be stressed up k :) i will treasure the times i had with you guys!! always and always. SEE YOU TMR!!!!

thanks for the charm:))))))

ONE MORE DAY...

i'm gonna miss you guys :(

missing you guys loads and loads and loads!!!!!!

yest!!! haha. outing outing. yay :) i had fun!!! met kell first then julius at marina. gosh. didnt have breakfast so we settled for long john before bernette, tammy and the rest arrived. went to bowl. walau. we were not bad can. TAMMIE AND I MAKE A GREAT TEAM :) from 2nd to don't know what position. WE ARE TO BEST!!!! haha. i DUN CARE!! speaking of which, alex and iverson( ahme ahem) haha were the best bowlers i've ever seen. they can be crowned the long kang kings man!!!! i forgot to take pics of them bowling. but oh wells. went to the arcade after that. i'm damn lousy at racing luh. i admit that. always last one. haha. then went to carl's jr to eat. hungry again. the four of us ordered a kids meal. gosh. chicken stars -_-lll. one piece for each of us. haha. damn funny luh. then then bernette had to leave :( we went to pool after that and then on to eat before we left home. tired tired day. kell came to stayover. had a nice talk. we really can't bear to leave pj. oh wells.

PICTURES!!!

sup dawg!

kell's hostage!!

beauty and the beast. hahahaha.

emo kids

i was the photographer of the day. thank me. faster faster!!! thank me!!! hahaha.

classic pics of gorilla :)))

orientation gathering for all j1s today. the atmosphere was damn high. potluck. my og only bought pizza and drinks. but still, we ate all the food. had scavenger hunt. we were suppose to get stuff for to win. and one of it was to catch the councillors. in the course of catching yang yi, i fell down :( thanks you for dressing my wound guys. and omg. love my OG man. it was so weird coz i was sitting like in the midst of all the people in the parade square. so they moved me to the canteen. then coz we bought cake for out ogl, my OG moved a table to where i was sitting and we cut the cake for our ogls. then came the cake smashing part. all of us kena the thing luh except zhi kai and yihuai. thanks ah. had fun dance and mass dance. screaming our lungs out all the way. letting it all lose. we sang the colleege anthem, some songs and cheers and then it was time to pack up and go home.

waited outside the school for tammie and bernette to go home before leaving. some irritating ppl decided to set a frog on us. it's freaking BIG luh!!!! i couldn't move so my basic instinct was to scream. wth. kell was damn scared too. alex got damn angry. wei quan and hui han wanted to confront them. but we didn't want a fight to occur. as soon as bernette left, we left the college. we saw the guys waiting for us along the roadside. then, as we were walking to the bus stop, they followed us. it's freaking scary man!! kell and i held hands all the way. at the bus stop, there was some starring going on. gosh. hui han looks damn scary when he stares. then wei quan decided to confront them coz he didn't want trouble on mon. he's in the same class with those ppl. that's why. so everything settled luh. they apologised and all. so yea. my appetite for mac is back :)))) we had concoctions of chilli sauce and barbecue sauce. gross luh. julius gave kell and i a lift home on cab coz he didn't want to be locked out. thanks :)))

the picture is still nice with or without you, alex. haha.

thanks to them, every second spent in school is worth the while :)

NICE CAKE!!! but used for smashing ppl's face. hahahaha.

OG 27!!!! i love you guys!

we are da bombxzxzxzxzxz!!

the clique!! haha.

love you guys to the max!!! :))))))))

i couldn't make it for sakae today. so sorry guys. and neh's thing tmr is cancelled too. i shall not elaborate on unhappy stuff.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEH!!!!!!! you're seventeen!!! officially. haha.

i couldn't go out so stayed in sch instead. just didn't want to go home. at least i was entertained by gf, gorilla and dinosaur. haha. sorry guys. i can't remember all the names. and and at least there was a pool table for us to spend time on. i got two balls in with one shot!!! haha. but i still lost in the end. -_-lll. thanks ah. was trying to sleep in the sanc but two times, i catch someone trying to kajiao me. haha. you know who you are :))) and then, was suppose to catch the sunset but the peeps wanted to leave early so cannot. but at least it was fun luh. slacking in sch and all.

shit man. don't know why these few days keep on getting tummyache. my gastric glands damn overactive luh. haha. i'm getting attached to pj. ahh. it's really a nicec place. like really really. the ppl and all. sad to leave luh. but i'll see my results first. tmr getting my precious back. haha. hope you've enjoyed keeping it for a day :) sopt check today. the teacher said my hairstyle was too stylish for the school and kayminn's hair was of an irregular shape/length/ -_-lll. out of point luh. but that's not the pt. i didn't like chilling in sch after lessons end but now it's almost a habit. the breeze and the view from sanctuary is NICE!! haha. i must watch the sunset before i leave. must must. and omg i tried this ice cream from island today. sponsored one luh. thanks ah:))) damn nice!!! gonna buy it again :)))

KELL PANGSEH-ED ME TODAY!!!!

that girl ah. anyway, today was so very long luh. bio lec and math lec were a torture. and then ponned chinese. haha. we were all damn scared the chinese HOD will catch us. some even suggested we go up to the rooftop. but wth. locked luh. then had chem tutorial. oh man. can die. we were all taking refuge at the sanctuary. the results might be released next week but the jitters hasn't come to me yet. haha. when i step into the hall then start to panic also not too late yea? gonna ctach the sunset before we leave this college. it's not that bad actually :)

i stayed at home today!!! itching to go out but mom and dad not at home and that bryan cannot be left alone. oh wells. but..i baked cookies!!! haha. omg. all the butter on my hands, damn gross luh. but the moulding of the cookies were damn fun :))))) the price i have to pay is that my hand still stinks of butter -_-lll. bryan was being a damn good photographer by taking candid shots of my maid and i. wth. lame luh. but he did take pics of my cookies :)))

the gross beginning. there was flour, icing sugar, baking powder, eggs, BUTTER!

finally the dough is formed

my 1st batch of cookies :)))

2nd batch of cookies:)))

i forgot to take the cookies after they were baked :( but YUM!!! haha

i'm falling in too deep...

it's just a piece of chicken

bryan must take from me

but i got it in the end :)

we were having some fun

you just had to scold us

FUN FUN DAY!!! haha. had CT. okay boring. kell crashed my math class. then we slacked all the way till 1230 with tammie, bernette and the guys who came later. i skipped GP lessons. haha. then we just stayed at the study area until 2 plus. met jun wen, wei quan and benedict. nice ppl. haha. we kind of lamed all the day till i don't know what time. and and kell and i excahnged unis. haha. that girl said it looked nice on me. thanks. and that led her to liking her uni more than ever. -_-lll. and she is DA BOMBXZXZXZXZX MAN!!! okay. tammie and bernette were also BOMBSSS!!! they kept on ''huo shang jia chu'' luh. haha. that's a new chinese word i accidentally created. thanks to those peeps i got laughed at so many times. we played pool at the sanctuary, kindly sponsored by wei quan. and because his eng isn't clear, marker box became butter box, junwen became wenjun. i really thought the latter was his name luh. anyways, those asses took photos!!! please delete them luh. and don't you guys ever photoshop it ahhh!!! warning. hahaha. went to the coffee shop beside the temple to eat and we went our own ways after that. kell and i went to orchard to meet her mom. ate pepper lunch. so full man. took like one hour to reach home. dead tired. but let me thank you for keeping me awake with your messages. haha. finally reached home. the bus journey looked like it took eternity to end man. oh. and i would like to end this post by saying :'' thanks for changing my sit ah!! hahaha''

studying with kay minn and amanda

emo-ing

couple in the making

KELL!!!

ahem ahem...

OK GUYS!!! THIS IS MY REVENGE BUT THERE WILL BE MORE TO COME:)

do you think animals have souls? haha. at mitch's house now. i guess this is one incident that the four of us will never forget. well, at least we were there with her. it's better than her being alone luh. and gosh, the weather really ''complimented'' the scene that took place. ok. what happened? mitch's much loved bunny has died. wth. she got it only like yest night. we came over to her place to help her find it. searching high and low only to hear amanda saying, '' MITCH!!! I FOUND THE BUNNY!'' not in an exclaimed and excited voice of course. we all thought it was still hopping and alive. all well. but what can you expect when the rabbit's found in the drain and mitch lives at the fourth storey of the block, the highest level some more. ox and mitch cried like shit. scotch (the rabbit's name) was found with its half of its body flattened. then it started raining. it became heavier when mitch wanted to bury it. the rain stopped when we went back to her house. we all emo-ed together for a while. although this, it's baffling man. how it jumped out and all. but we figured it ran up her couch and jumped out. MITCH!!! REMEMBER TO CLOSE YOUR WINDOW MAN!!! she might be getting another mini lop. don't be so sad k :)))) always here for you :))))))

okay. had freaking PE today. ugh. they made us run some freaking 3.2km. wth. the 1st lesson like that already. some more is mass PE. gosh. some zhai ppl run with the teacher. there were 5 teachers there. they were suppose to split up and run amongst us but in the end all run in front. -_-lll. thanks ah. they pushing us from the front. haha. after a while, ppl started slowing down and walking. then at the finish, all those walking ppl chiong all the way. wah seh!! like damn pro like that. haha. the next class was bio. three words. OH MY GOD!!! it's freaking alien language man. wth. i didn't get like 70% of what the teacher was talking. kay minn and i were dosing off already. the slip i had from my table really woke me up though. then concentration all the way. but wth. althought this, didn't really get what she was talking. anyways, GP was next. lecture was quite fun. haha. went for lunch after that at thai nood. miss auntie's noodle like shit man. mitch, mad, ox, amanda and stacey was there. haven't seen those peeps for damn long.

mom's controlling me like shit. ugh. what is it with parental control man? i mean we were suppose to be gien ore freedom at this age and like now why do i feel like it's lesser than ever. even a lunch after school she made a huge effing fuss. and now i'm blogging, they think i have some problems in school. -_-lll. hanging out is what i do best. why can't they just face it. and school has not even really began on proper. and she's already like that. taking every cahnce i can to meet up with friends just in case school gets more hectic and meet ups start to decline faster than ever. gosh. when can they just loosen the tight hold they have man.

dad woke up today by dragging me off the bed. destination = toilet. haha. but i had quick reflexes!!!!held on to the bed. the same trick doesn't work twice dude!!! off to town with mom to get bryan's school nag. that bum just refused to come la. wth. but i just love walking. so yea. thank me okay!! mom has been so so nice these few days. we went to see my school bag but won't get it until the Os results come out. damn scared la. but hopefully i do well. went home and went out again. haha. this time with daddy, to jurong point. he needed to return the p4 to the seller online coz it didn't work. the seller said it was dad's os that was the prob. but oh wells. he decided not to buy the thing again. went home and went out again. to btp with mom. haha. and then back again to play badminton with bryan. OMG!!! i left the house 4 times man!! haha. continously luh. school's starting tmr!!! my subject combi!! omg. i hope i get what i want.

dearest kell, please don't go to that salon again. haha. no more next time and try to drive the itch for a haircut away k:)))) haha. but no matter what, hair will grow back. and trust me when i say that :))))))loves!!!! see you for breakfast tmr!!!

i really don't get it. what is it with little brothers. yes. i agree that they are fun, adorable and all, AT TIMES (but let's just say it happens once in a blue moon) . other than that, ugh. PURE IRRITATING-NESS. walau. they like beat you in something and get all big ballon headed about it. it like literally blows them up la. like some big ball. okay, not so exaggerated la. but you get the idea. hate it man. it's like he starts boot licking and getting all high and the minute dad scolds him he gets all pouty and snappy. and the really weird thing is like he likes to give spastic faces and make weird noises. so effing annoying!!!!! if i'm not his sism i would really think he's just a pure weirdo man. aiya whatever it is, he''s my bro. something i have to live with.

went out with mom today to get stuff for bro today. not appreciative sial. somemore scold ppl. asshole la. aiya. i'm not feeling good now. my mood is like down all the way. just getting stuff off my chest. i miss outings with kap clan. REALLY MISS THEM LOTSSSSSS!!!!!

today was so so fun man!!!!! we were dancing and dancing and dancing. OMG!!!! madness la!!!! got ppl say i emo kid can. you believe not? haha. wth emo kid. anyway, PURE MADNESS!!!!!!!! EVERYBODY WAS SO HIGH. not on alcohol though, not to worry :) haha. damn tired now.

night.

second day of orientation. station games were real fun. at least my group interacted. but still not rara enough :( still we had fun. kell was telling me her og got 49 out of 75 and so happy some more. until i told her mine got 59 then she surprised face. was thinking we would get some prize but they awarded it to the clans where they was foul play involved. but heck la. had some mass dance after that and they insisted must have couple pairs. oh wells. partnered with this guy(sorry i still don't know your name) okay i shall not elaborate on the details. just the most ''fun'' time i ever had yea. had war games later on. we were suppose to throw water bombs at each opposing clan's hand made newspaper lollipop. many didn't get to play though. coz there weren't enough water bombs for the more than 600 of us. dead tired man. more gruelling talks tmr. but last day alr!!! haha. had fun la. not during the talks though. slept throughout. my best strategy to endure all of the talks. uh huh. okay. need to pack my bag. night guys :)

what the hell. confused over subject combination. ugh. stupid la. the damn jc only gave us one day to make our selection. -_-lll. but what the heck. only going there for 3 weeks. and yes. i am so not going back there man. orientation group sucks to the max man. some oopish rara ppl who threatened to move my hands to do the desired actions of the cheer. man, all the st margs ppl like dispeesed settlement la. one in each ''city'' can. then that chang the best, leave halfway. haha. heng kay min didn't go too. if not i die. can't wait for orientation to be over man. maybe tmr might be a more rara day but i doubt so la. see the ppl in my group and you'll know why. seeing the peeps today did make the mood lighter though. missing them so much :(

everybody's getting vexed over everything. can just laxing a bit not. so tension for what. but anyway, all will be over la. before you know it. i hope.

the atmosphere there was OMG. some group of bengs were in front of us. then keep on shouting cheebuy here cheebuy there. noisy like crazy monkeys la. then haven't even 12 midnight yet keep on shouting. then some nerd in the gang keep on smoking and smoking. stick after stick. smelly sial. and then the fireworks came. counted down. YAY!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!!

and then ppl started streaming out of the place. crowded. but expected la. we estimated 600,000 ppl were there. haha. roughly i guess. and then when the ppl were moving out, some banglas started to spray each other. omg. in the myraids of ppl la. and then kell and i saw couples. couples as in bangla couples. they were holding each other's hands and wth. the one we saw in the mrt was worse la. hands all over the place like gonna kiss each other like that. but anyways, HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!!!!!!!!! gonna miss you all man.

check out the banglas.

ooooo. beginning school tmr. a whole new year man. these past 2 years at st margs were loads of fun. running to canteen with the gang to buy nasi lemak and chicken rice. missing those times man. and camwhoring with those peeps. ahh...gosh. all those jokes we had during class times and laughing at each other's sleeping positions. it's all worth remembering. meeting the kap clan is something that i will never forget. we had so much fun over the holidays. keep in touch yea guys. much misses :))))