yanyu's camera was confiscated because of sandra n oxy. they were taking photos of each other in class n yea. somehow, the innocent party was yanyu n she was pissed at sandra and oxy for causing the confiscation. things were actually okay yest. but today, somehow, yanyu got pissed again with oxy this time. n with sandra too. except that she toked to sandra n the rest but never to oxy. not until the end of today at least. n its like oxy actually got really pissed with yanyu. for one, she did not noe why the hell yanyu was pissed at her n for two, she was confused n frustrated for not knowing why. n she flared up. somehow. everybody kinda was with yanyu all this while n i was like the only person with oxy through the whole thing. i know how is it like to be all alone, not having anyone to talk to or confide in. i just didnt want oxy to feel that way. so yea =) just stayed beside her. n after that phyllis n grace even reprimanded her for not wanting to reflect n think. something like that luh. and oxy kept telling me what friends are these? she was crying. n it made me want to cry too. coz the feeling is really lousy. but dont worry. it didnt flow down. phyllis n grace came to class later on. i told grace not to reprimand oxy anymore coz she was feeling bad n hurt enough. n thanks! i got shouted at by grace. she apologised to me at band later. i really forgot about it but she reminded me. but lets just let bygones be bygones. anyway, i didnt want such unpleasnt memories. jessica came later. n told oxy that it was best that she called yanyu. and yea. she did n they are fine already. haha. feel happy for them. but at the same time, i feel sad too. all along, i feel so isolated ya noe? like although im inside the click, i dont feel a part of it. n i feel like im being treated like a piece of shit. feeling left out and a substitute. argh! its sucky man. y do girls behave like that? cck wasnt like that. they were nicer to me at least. this feeling is lousy. i bring food to class, treat pple nicely n im not even asking all these actions to be reciprocated. i just want to be treated like a friend. is that so difficult? ya noe. more than half of the things going on within the click, im not even aware of it? damn!!! ugh! im always treated like a blur sotong n pple like them actually get frustrated over this. its not my fault that im blur ya noe? i guess oxy will just forget that i even stood by her during this incident. yea. anyway, she's so tall she cant even see me. they just dont give a damn luh. even when oxy was frustrated, she kept saying '' what bloody frineds are they? leave me all alone.'' am i not her friend? i am never going to let my children ifi have any, to go to a single sex school its seriously stupid. petty. jealousy. fucked up people.