i want Os to be over!!!!

YES!!!! the Os are gonna end in three weeks. for me. not really yay. but at least the major papers are over. haha. can't wait. the prog after Os is like OMG!! haha. hanging out, clubbing, shopping... AHHHH!!!!! I SERIOSULY CANNOT WAIT!! now must mug for emath, ss and bio. and the day Bio P2 ends, it's like PASTAMANIA!!!! yes!!! my pomodoro!!!! and and my mango, topshop...AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! Os, you better get your big fat ass away!! haha.

yea. maybe i'm too bloody hell shallow to get what you meant. i mean like first i wasn't sure about you. and then it just hit me. first it was a crush and then yea. i started to look forward to every conversation i had with you, esp the video call. and then you kinda came into my mind. and now this. what is it man! ugh. you said i don't get it. what do i not get? the ''i don't like to force pple to do things''. like what the hell? yea. that's me. i don't force pple to do things unless it's really a must. i'm not saying it's like a must that we chat. but what is it? it's like you suddenly turned. with what i said? or what. i'm too big a dummy to understand. or was it read between the spaces huh? ugh. whatever. ger's not the person that will get affected by what ppl think of her. but i can't help but feel kinda not right when you're feeling like that towards me. you don't owe me anything. nobody does. and yea. maybe somethings are better left unsaid and maybe we're not meant to be as much as i don't want to admit it coz i do really miss you. a real lot...

we celebrated phyll's bdae today. haha. she was damn touched. ahh. how i wish somebody would actually bother to do that for me. It's the sweetest thing ever. maybe i'm a person who tends to notice the little things that ppl actaully bother to take the time off to do for their friends. St Margs proved a seriously new env for me. haha. the ppl, the culture, everything. i remembered hating going to school for the first few weeks and even felt amazed at how time flew for the first few months and the wanting to always meet joel and the rest of my close girlfriends. i kept lamenting that the girls there were no fun and how the chua chu kang pple were so fun and i would definitely be enjoying my time there than here. Of course, as time passed, i met new ppl. and phyll and ox were definitely the forst few ppl i made friends with. haha. they were actually really nice. and sson the whole gang came. yanyu, choy, sand, chen, grace. they really made me feel that St margs wasn't just about the competitive studying and all the shit. it was actually more than that. definitely, i had to get used to the way things were being done around there. haha. like maybe not really waiting for each other when it was time for assembly or recess. not really the recess part coz i'm always running to the canteen with the ever-craving-for-food ox. haha. or maybe it's just me. i'm always waiting for ppl. and jackie and hani never failed to wait for me for recess so that we could go down to the canteen together. but yea. haha. like i said, i guess i just tend to be a little more sensitive to things like this. well, call me a little over the top but yea. haha. and i always felt that maybe my existence in the clique wasn't really acknowledged. OMG. don't get me wrong. i mean like uh... i tend to be shut off maybe coz i'm too soft and nobody ever bothers to listen huh? haha. nah. maybe i'm just being oversensitive. haha. it was part of st margs that made me who i am today. and not to forget the unforgettable days i had in cck. haha. they shaped me. a real lot. well. the party grace planned for phyll was really. haha. WOW! but that's what good friends do for each other yea? haha. she was so touched that she cried. tears were nearly in my eyes too. haha. i'm touched okay. it would really be nice if somebody actually did that for me. haha. omg. well at least they remebered her birthday. i guess my birthday is not really easy to remember or something. haha. it wasn't until sandra i think who brought it up in class when sch reopened that the rest of the gang did actually wish me. its not like i'm jealous or anything. seriosuly. don't get me wrong. haha. just envious i guess. not a close part of them yet or something. haha. these are just thoughts. take it as blabbering or put on the earphones if you think i talking shit. haha. just felt like pouring them out.

o levels officially begin in the week after the next. haha. it's damn fast. kell's here. i'm gonna start a new blog i guess. haha. after o levels are over. CAN"T WAIT!!! and maybe i do like him after all. and maybe she likes him too. haha. i don't know. hope all will turn out well. but first, O LEVELS!!!!