fuck u! dont anyhow accuse me okay!!! think what. just because u are my elder does not mean u can do that. did not really believe what mom said about u. but after yest, my opinion of u have changed ever since. just because ur son is the precious n only pillar of ur life, it does not mean u can throw ur weight anywhere u like. no respect for anybody man. even the closest one to you also gets this kind of attitude. fuck! no self respect, no respect for others, what the fuck are u born into this world for???? ugh! oh n ur son, tell him to fuck off to. sensitive brat. I HATE YOU!!!!!!! you dont get the facts right, neither did you ask for my side of the story. but to the hell with that. i tried to clarify, but fuck it. i dont have any respect for u anymore. just FUCK OFF!!!! AHHHH!!! hate u to the core!!! AA said i looked sloppy, look dead and i need to make a lot of effort to walk. like wth! what's his prob anyway. do i need to change my look to suit what he wants to see? ugh! what the hell is the world coming to??? he's always giving me those weird talks and thinking that i have a serious porblem with myself. i have a hunch he thinks im aneroxic. but i SOOO AM NOT!!!! whats your prob AA? ugh! just beacuse u are a t'''''', does not mean u have the responsibility to do all these! ugh! i know u ''care'' but please. its a little freaky!! and its weird too. but thanks for the concern. too much is an overdose though.

UUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont feel like talking can not?????? results damn screwed up!!!!!!!!!!! ahhh!!! really feel like killing myself okay??? fuck! and you guys have to rub it in. i know i have to do better. admit this term a bit slack. I WILL WORK HARD!!! got that? whats your freaking problem?????? walau. say that you predicted that i would get these results? fuck! didnt you wish me luck on the exam day? didnt u say i would do well since i work so hard???? ugh!!! fuck! all that shit you have said are erased with the fucking sentence - i knew you would get these results. what is the problem with you? the school's marking scheme is freaking strict. i cant even blog in peace. FYI this post was suppose to be before the very recent one.

suppose to go out today with kell. but mommy said NO! ugh!!! then she said go out tmr. then i changed my mind. dont wanna go out at all. haha. coz i wanna watch tv. oh wells. study chinese until wanna die man!! do do do. aiya. used to it can already. oh wells. the week following the next is the mother tongue Os. GOOD LUCK!!!

its the end of the week already!!!! got so much chinese homework!!! haha. what the hell!! but okay luh. kinda got used to it already. had band performance for the school today!! haha. played heart n voice n sunrise. my FINAL performance already. haix. gonna miss my dears. haha. to think my anthony asked phyll if we could put in the same amt of concentration in hist classes. oh wells. haha. u gotta admit they are very different subject. n hist is not even relaxing. haha. but ya noe? the crowd literally roared when we ended the song. haha. that shows how much we mean to the sch. oh wells. we are important anyway =) i called hani yest n asked if she wanted to go with me together and give jackie a surprise isit on her bdae, like right after the chinese 'o's and guess what? she's going with aini and the rest. apparently that's jackie and hani's current click. so yea. i guess i'll have to go myself or something. oh wells. i guess im just not as close to them as before. accept that fact ger!!! knock it into ur head!! whatever u do. accept it! yea. i have to get that into my head. really miss the times we spent together. st margs just isnt the friendly env i was exposed to in cck. really miss my friends. at least i still have kell. but even then, she has her click n all. but yea. haha. at least she was there when i needed her. oh wells. i really want to go back to the past. i dont even want to transfer school!!! y did i do that in the 1st place? damn kuku brain leh! ugh!

school started again today. it feels like hols now. ahhh!!! next week is x country n the following week is chinese 'o's!! haha. wow!(sarcastic) no comments on my hair. thank god! maybe those pple might be toking about it but i dont even noe. oh wells. i dont care!! haha! anyways. today was a long day during mother tongue. haha. ugh!!! im gonna die man. mother tongue damn long. stupid. but quite okay luh. at least i can eat and lao shi won't say anything. haha debboz!! haha. hope your tummy is feeling better =) ahhh!!! y do i have this thing thing in me when i see whee lynn's blog and see that there is a result thing thing which shows how much her friends know her.the thing thing came whe i saw that joel actually knows her 80%. im not suppose to feel like that!!! IM OVER remember???? ahhh! slap me pls!!!!

its been freaking long since my last entry huh. i have a blog but nobody knows about it. haha. xcept u=) the gap is getting bigger gurl =) he's bloddy crude man. whats up with the ''whatevers'' and ''fuck it then''. ugh. what's up with him. just isnt the same old joel anymore. AIN'T it? haha. i just got my hair cut. look like a tweed man. but too bad to the tweeds out there. i'm not one, and i will never be one. HAHA!! got that? haha. i kinda like the person who did the hair for me. might go back to her again. the exams are finally over. i actually ended on last thurs. i went shopping for four consecutive days!!! haha. woah! hundreds of dollars gone. but still got loads of stuff that i have not got yet. oh wells. oh. n there's this bung who added me on friendster. i dont know for what. but let's just say ive got a new friends. haha. and i went ice skating last sat!! haha. wet my pants. could see my yellow undies. hehs. oopsy=) but after that cannot already. missed the free peep show. haha. ok. im gonna stop that. im getting goose pimples myself. oh. n i didnt know that my top was kinda loose. so my bra was exposed. haha. n that guy who rented us the shoes. man! he was such a pervert can? he literally stood there and stared and even had the cheek to smile. i know im flat. nth to see. but wth! won't you want to slap his face if you were me? haha. carol was kinda pissed with me coz ter went to the place with me. they said she ditched them to come with me. how nicely put, gurls. i don't mean anything. but she's like taking one big round to go with you guys. so yea. get the pt. but i guess it turned out fine after that. and i finally know how to skate. well. sort of. haha. still a bit unstable. oh!! last thing! haha. i cut my hair. haha. its screwed!!